(This devotional is from Sept 17, 2017. Due to a death in our family, I decided to revisit a devo from the past with minimal changes!)
I've met many involved in the arts that come off as very confident & secure. However, confident & secure can sometimes come across as cocky & arrogant. I've always been intrigued by such people. Even though I've been involved with the arts for a majority of my life, I've always struggled with doubt. I would see those seemingly "confident & secure" artists, and wonder how they were so sure? What was it that made them think they had found the right way to create? What made them think/believe they were so wonderful? I've come to realize that even those that seem so sure of themselves wrestle with feelings of doubt at time. The cocky & arrogant persona are often a cover up for their own insecurities. In the arts, doubt is natural as we extend ourselves in new & challenging ways. It is what we do with doubt that will define us in our artistic endeavors. Will we allow it to destroy us? Will we allow it to push us to new heights?
But Moses said to God, "Who am I that I should go to Pharaoh and bring the Israelites out of Egypt?" And God said, "I will be with you..."
Moses doubted. Peter doubted. Thomas doubted. Those of us that wrestle with doubt are in good company. I think that we should take comfort in the fact that so many heroes of the faith wrestled with doubt at some point in their life. We all have weaknesses. We all have struggles. However, how we proceed changes everything. It isn't that we move forward devoid of all doubt, but that even in our doubt we take steps of faith trusting in The One that has gone before us. As we take those steps of faith our doubt will begin to diminish. We will begin to trust God more with our "everything". We will see He is faithful...even when we are not. When Moses spoke to God of his insecurities and doubts....God did not tell Moses it would be all sunshine & roses. God said, "I will be with you."! There is comfort in knowing God is always there with us....even when we doubt.