Over time we come to trust our training & experience. We come to trust our favorite supplies & materials. We even come to trust a select few to speak truth to us concerning our work. However, that trust does not always occur easily. These things come to be when tested & found to be trustworthy. I think we naturally question things. It is hard to trust. When it comes to our art....it is more than "just art". It is a part of us, our experiences, our emotions, our thoughts, and our views of the world. It is hard to trust others when we are sharing something we love & care about, and honestly feel is a part of us. We want control. However, control can begin to stifle us. It keeps us from being free to take risks. If we do not extend ourselves & trust.....we will never see the rewards of our efforts and the growth that comes when we step out in faith.
Jesus, once more deeply moved, came to the tomb. It was a cave with a stone laid across the entrance. "Take away the stone," he said. "But, Lord," said Martha, the sister of the dead man, "by this time there is a bad odor, for he has been there four days." Then Jesus said, "Did I not tell you that if you believe, you will see the glory of God?"
I've said it before, "I AM A MARTHA!!" When Mary sat at the feet of Jesus listening, learning, and adoring....Martha was too busy making sure everything was perfect, and she missed out on what was best. Now we see her once again missing out on what Jesus was about to do. She over thought everything. She forgot the importance of trusting. I understand her struggle. She was focused on her loss. She was grieving her brother's death. Plus, she had her plans on how things were suppose to happen, and they did not turn out how she thought the should/would. Jesus was suppose to come before her brother died. If he would have come when SHE sent for him..everything would have worked out perfectly as she planned. This thing that Jesus was going to do didn't make sense. It didn't fit into her plan. He reminded her though of what he had told her before..."Did I not tell you that if you believe, you will see the glory of God?".
Trust sometimes takes reassurance. If you struggle in trusting God with things in your life, THAT IS OK!!! He is not surprised by this. He knows your struggles. He knows your heart. Be honest with where you are & share that with Him. Being able to lay out your fears, worries, and troubles will allow you to start trusting him with your life in deeper/authentic ways. You can see example after example in the Bible of people who wrestled with this very thing....trusting God (Moses, Noah...etc). You are in GREAT company. Just remember that if you believe.....you will see the glory of God!