We come to trust our training & experience. We come to trust our favorite supplies & materials. We even come to trust a select few to speak truth about our work. However, that trust does not always easily occur. I think we naturally question things. It is hard to "just trust". When it comes to our art....it is more than "just art". It is a part of us, our experiences, our emotions, our thoughts, and our view of the world. It is hard to trust others when we are sharing something we love & care about...and honestly feel is a part of us. However, if we do not extend ourselves & have faith...we will never see the rewards of our efforts.
Jesus, once more deeply moved, came to the tomb. It was a cave with a stone laid across the entrance. "Take away the stone," he said. "But, Lord," said Martha, the sister of the dead man, "by this time there is a bad odor, for he has been there four days." Then Jesus said, "Did I not tell you that if you believe, you will see the glory of God?"
John 11:38-40
I've said it before..I have a great deal in common with Martha. When Mary sat at the feet of Jesus listening, learning, and adoring....Martha was too busy making sure everything was perfect that she missed out on what was best. Now we see her once again missing out on what Jesus is doing. She over thinks everything (totally me), and forgets the importance of trusting. I understand her struggle. She is focused on her loss. She is grieving her brother's death. This thing that Jesus is about to do doesn't make sense. He reminds her though of what he has told her before..."Did I not tell you that if you believe, you will see the glory of God?". Trust sometimes takes reassurance. If you struggle in trusting God with things in your life.....THAT IS OK!!! He knows your struggle. He knows your heart. Be honest with where you are & share that with Him. You can see example after example in the Bible of people wrestling with trusting God (Moses, Noah...etc). You are not alone. Just remember...if you believe...you will see the glory of God!
PRAYER
Dear Lord...help me to trust in you.
Help me to bring my disbelief to you.
Allow me to see you at work, and when I don't see you at work...may I still trust you to be God in all situations.
In Christ's Name, Amen